i know, 2 blogs in 1 day!! i'm now in need of a nap! actually, this one was originally part of my last blog because i started figuring out what i wanted to say, so i kept going...then i realized it didn't flow, and needed its own! so, enjoy...

sometimes part of me wants one thing, while another part of me wants something different...here it is, case and point: ever since i was a junior in high school, i've dreamed of getting into personal protection, specifically for the government, specifically for the State Department. i've come to realize, well, i've known all along, but it hit me just recently, that this job WILL require me to pick up and leave. especially if i'm going to go into the Marines. if Marines works out, i'll be gone 10 weeks this summer...graduate from college in May of 2010, be on a tour for the USMC for 3 1/2 years, and then decide whether i want another tour, or try to get into the State Department. regardless, i'll be leaving central indiana, and probably indiana altogether. i've come to make some great friends over the past year and a half, mostly from my church. in the past i've had some, what i thought, to be good friendships, but they seemed to fail. i had a great group of friends when working as an Athletic Director, but then we all left our positions at the school, went separate ways, and now we don't have the commonality and we hardly, if ever, speak anymore. i fear that's what will happen in a couple years, as "adulthood" takes over...and that's exactly what i don't want to happen...i have this great group of friends, the thing in common is that we are at the same church, but in a couple years, if i'm no longer there, are we going to still keep in touch? or will it be like previous situations? i mean, the ones i worked with are only 20-25 minutes away and we barely talk...what's it going to be like if i'm out of state? (sidenote to any family reading: yes, i'll miss all of you too, but we will always have the commonality of being family!!!) so i don't really know what else to say, except that, if we're friends...let's remain that way, even when life may take us separate ways...i'd rather have a few good friends, always there, than tons of friends, who would never want to get together!